About

For starters, this is somewhat a personal blog, for my own use. But it’s also going to be filled with quotes and my writings I’ve done. . . obviously I’m not a professional writer, but writing relaxes me. Writing helps me release from my protective shell and take on the outside world. When nothing else makes sense, I take pen to paper. It’s the best way I know how to open up and show the world who I am, underneath all the emotional barriers.

If nothing else, I find comfort in writing. It relaxes me, and it helps me think. I’m sure I’m not the only one that has days where they feel lonely and just need to vent. Well, when I feel that way, I write. Poetry, mostly, but I’ve been attempting to write a novel for some time now as well. Even if it never gets published, I want to at least prove to myself that I can do it; that I have it in me to write something beautiful and poetic. And I know that, if I set my mind to it, I can achieve it with time.

I dropped out of high school when I was only a few months shy of graduating, and many people would say that I just gave up. The truth is, my decision to drop out was pathetic. I regret it more than anything, and if I could go back and change that decision, I would in a heart beat. Without that diploma, it’s been extremely hard to find a job. I am hoping one day to write a novel so good that it can be published, and then I’ll know that I can really look beyond not having graduated and still do something with my life; not look at it as just wasting my life away. And then maybe people will be proud of me.

​I don’t have much going for me right now, but I have been through a lot. I know what it’s like to be in love, and to have them walk away without a second thought. I know what happiness feels like, as well as what depression feels like. I’ve been there. People often come to me for guidance or questions about how to handle a certain situation, or how to deal with something they’re going through, and I’m glad to help in any way I can. But I have issues taking my own advice and listening to myself.

I’m big into Astrology too, so I read my horoscope daily, to see what it has to say and how much it’s like me on any given day. Most of the time, it’s spot on. And when I’m feeling lonely or sad, and I read my horoscope and it says something like, “You tend to protect yourself a little too much. You don’t like to be at anyone’s mercy because you fear being hurt.” I instantly think, what the hell. How does it know how I feel inside.? Astrology is a huge factor when I write. I contemplate all the things that I’ve dealt with, or have gone through, and I just . . . take pen to paper. Writing guides me. It’s who I am. I’m an emotional and sensitive being, and I won’t change for anybody.